5 years

Its been 5 years since we said goodbye.  5 years since I last talked to you.  5 years since we laughed together.  5 years since I got my last hug.  5 years too many.  The time may have zipped by but it still feels like you left just yesterday.  I still have moments of wanting to call you and ask you about something or times when I expect you to walk through the door at any moment.  But just as soon as I have that thought, I remember just as fast that I can't.  I know it was your time to go and that contrary to what I believe, you really did teach us everything we needed to know and that we will be just fine on our own.  Doesn't mean I like it or believe all the time that I can't make it without you here, but I do believe that you are continually guiding me and still teaching me every day.  I miss you like crazy Momma and love you forever.

Realization

Sometimes no matter how hard you try, you can't always make someone understand why you do the things you do, why you want certain things or even how you feel.  Unless they have dealt with the same thing or felt the same, they will probably never understand.    

Captured Moments

Beauty on the way to work...

I didn't stop to take the pic but I got a pretty good one through my windshield.  Still doesn't do it justice but at least you can see the yellow.  Just beautiful in my book.  Little things...

This would be my child knocking limbs down for his momma.  He had so much fun doing this for me and was very proud of the job he did.  Got down what I wanted and others I didn't think he could.  He decided he needs to start his own tree service.  He's a mess.  I laughed so hard and had the best time watching him. 

My babies waiting to see Dr. Patti for their check-ups.  Both of them are doing great and growing like weeds!  Bella's right ear was clear, left ear not so much but Dr. Patti said it wasn't bad enough to give an antibiotic for.  Oh yes...and her tube is still in her left ear.  After the doctor, the kids and I did a little shopping--couple new shirts for each of them and then had lunch. It was a good day.

I would love to show you a picture of my new lawn mower or lawn guy that I have named Marcello, but I can't get the picture to come through.  Just know he is very pretty and shiny and red.  Couldn't tell you if he does a good job on the yard because I haven't fired him up yet.  You have to have gas to do that and Missy hasn't gone to fill her gas can up yet.  I know, I know.  But know this...I picked this guy out all by myself. Had a little consult with daddy on what I was looking at and which one I was leaning towards and he said I done good. So proud of myself. I know its just a mower but its a step I took on my own. Little things...

I've talked on here how I overthink situations and in doing so create problems that don't exist but dadgumit sometimes my mind just kicks into overdrive and its hard to shut it off.  Case in point this morning...was talking to one of my girlfriends this morning about a something that happened and how my mind just went crazy thinking about different scenarios and we both agreed that we are so much alike in that respect and guilty of overthinking situations.  And then I saw this...

I hear ya...its just a lot easier said than done.

 

Spring Is On The Horizon

Spring is in the air.  I've noticed the last few mornings on my drive in that things are starting to go green.  I always find it refreshing to watch it all come to life again.  There is a house I pass every morning on the way to work.  I've always loved this house.  It sits on a couple of acres and has open pastures all around it.  Every Spring the pasture on one side covers itself in these yellow flowers.  It is so beautiful.  Its been nasty misty weather this week so I haven't stopped to take a picture of this gorgeousness...but when the sun comes out I will have to stop and try to capture the beauty of it.  Its almost a breathless sight.  In the middle of all the remains of a dreary winter is this beautiful splash of color and life.

A good reminder if you ask me.