Monday Blues

Still don't like Mondays.  Nothing against them, they just fall on the wrong day of the week. 

Had a good weekend, spent some time with my blessing, tried some new things and made some progress around the house.  Still trying to figure out how I can snap my fingers or wiggle my nose to get the bigger stuff done.  Its a tough thing for me having to ask for help.  Don't like doing it and irritates the fire out of me when I can't figure something out myself, especially when its something so simple.  Sometimes I wonder if it ever gets any easier..."it" being a single mom.  It can be so overwhelming at times and its times like this I don't care to be single.  I miss the constant.  And dating doesn't count.  You know what I mean.  Being single has its perks but not always what its cracked up to be.  I'll just keep it at that.  Don't want to bring down your happy Monday just because I have the blues.  Just putting thoughts down. 

I hope you have a terrific day and week :)

    

So What

On the flip side of George...we have P!nk. 

When I was on maternity leave with Miss Bella I watched Ellen every single day, at least I tried.  One episode I caught the tale end when she and P!nk were singing a catchy tune in "the shower".  I didn't catch any of the words but with the tune stuck in my head, I hummed it to then hubby who can name just about any song there is that's not country (he comes to me for the country stuff) and name it he did.  In fact, it wasn't but a couple days later he was up early with Bella when the video for "So What" came on so he backed it up and recorded it for me.  I think it always tickled him how this sweet, quiet, country-loving girl could become excited about P!nk.  I still love this song and it quickly became one of my favorites to jam out to. I know y'all find that hilarious, and I'm okay with that, but in the comfort of my own home, I too become a rock star!!  ;)   "I've got moves you've never seen"...name that movie!

I have to admit, and I mean this as no disrespect to the ex, but the first time I heard this song after our divorce, I was like..."this is totally me!" 

I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't need you

And guess what
I'm having more fun
And now that we're done
I'm gonna show you tonight

I'm alright
I'm just fine
And you're a tool

So, so what
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't want you tonight.

And I have been fine, I have been alright...and yes in my own ways I am a rock star and I have rock moves.  I have successfully been able to move on...not without hiccups along the way, but I think I'm doing pretty darn good. 

Now you know no post about music/videos would be complete without me giving you a link to share one of my favorite tunes.  So listen, jam, dance and become a rock star!  I have faith in you. 

P!nk's So What

Love's Gonna Make It Alright...or George will!

I thought of something witty and fun to post about this weekend and went to start several times but got distracted and never even typed a word.  And now...with the big 4-0 creeping up on me (that's what I'm blaming it on anyway) I have no idea what on earth I was going to write about.

So instead of me continuing to type and try to think of what I was going to write about I think its time we heard from the man, the legend...the one and only KING GEORGE!!

Do y'all know how much I adore this man?  I mean seriously...if I was ever lucky enough to actually meet him, I probably wouldn't be able to say a damn word to him.  I'd be sweating bullets and probably trying very hard not to pee on myself.  He pulls a smile out of me no matter how bad my day has been or how tired I am in the morning.  LOVE HIM!! 

Anyway...his latest single out "Love's Gonna Make It Alright" is a fave.  Actually...I liked when I first bought his cd and heard it for the first time.  When I was having my horrible, icky, no-good, down-right disgusting weekend I heard it on the radio when I was with my niece Cori.  We both were singing and I busted out with "George is gonna make it alright"...she laughed at me but it stuck and now she sings it like that sometimes too.  Ha!

As I always say..."its the little things". 

This link below is from YouTube and this particular video is amazing in that you get to look at different pictures of the man himself and just be happy, happy..

"Love's Gonna Make It Alright"

Over-Thinking...

I guess sometimes you have to fall back on your butt to get the jolt you need to move forward.  And all the little reminders since my crappy weekend have been popping up everywhere.  This quote screamed at me this morning...

"Things don't go wrong and break your heart so you can become bitter and give up.  They happen to break you down and build you up so you can be all that you were intended to be." 
  ~Charles "Tremendous" Jones

That is one of my favorite quotes and I have it on my bulletin board at work so I see it everyday.  Guess I just didn't want to see it the last few days but today I "heard it"...if that makes any sense. 

And the thing about thinking too much. That has really been screaming at me, thanks to Pinterest and other friends.  Funny how sometimes when you're told you think too much and you agree but really pay no mind to it until you're constantly reminded of it.  That's me this week.  Everyday something has told me to QUIT THINKING SO MUCH!!!  I saw this on Pinterest this morning....

And this one a couple days ago...

Ya think someone is trying to tell me something?  I'm beginning to think so myself!  And after the way my brain has been working overtime this week, I agree with both of those little tidbits of wisdom 100%!

So, I'm going to try my best to quit thinking so much, quit analyzing everything so much and just live in the moment and enjoy life now.  Hard to do when I'm almost the big 4-0 and I've done this all my life.  But I can try and take baby steps to improve on things.  So glad I have my friends, family and Pinterest to help me when I need the nudge.  Love y'all!

Life's Too Short

Found this on Pinterest this morning.  I love this and need to remember this every single day...

Think I need to add it to my blog sidebar...and print it where I can see it every day.

!@#$%^&*&^%$

That's the way I felt Sunday and yesterday. 

A thousand steps forward and one lousy stupid box of memories knocks me on my butt. 

It all still hurts.

Feeling better today. 

Found the silver-lining in all this pain. 

I'm a fighter.

Working my way back.

Happy 3rd Birthday Isabella Marie

I can hardly believe my sweet girl is 3 years old.  Its just not possible.  But again...when I look at the calendar, it tells me its entirely true.  Time has flown by and its only getting faster. 

When my son died, a huge chunk of me went with him.  I never thought I would smile again, feel anything but numbness for the rest of my life.  I didn't think I deserved to be happy, about anything.  I didn't celebrate or acknowledge my birthday for several years after because that meant I would be celebrating me and it didn't feel right.  As I sit here with tears in my eyes I can tell you the day my daughter was born was the day my heart smiled again.  I felt alive, the numbness was gone and I was happy again.  She has kept me smiling every day since.  She, in many ways, brought me back to life and one day when she is old enough to understand, I will tell her just what she did for her momma. 

She is a hoot to hang out with.  She can drive you crazy some days but all through tons of laughter and fun.  She is a total girlie girl and fashion diva in the making. 

See here...

  Watching Tangled at the doctor's office...

Miss Bella is so animated with her expressions in everything she does.  I wish I could share some of it with you because she would make you smile like you never have before and laugh until you cry.  She is my sunshine and I thank God for her every day. 

Bella's Loves
Dresses and skirts
Anything PINK
Shoes, shoes, shoes!
Lipgloss, nail polish and hair accessories
Jewelry
Purses and Bags
Brushing her teeth
Washing her hands
5 yellow cookies (Vanilla Oreos)
Juice (Gatorade)
Chicken with ranch and ketchup
Hello Kitty, Dora, Princess
Puppies!!
Skittles
Jellybeans
Dora/Princess snacks
Playing outside
Shopping
and much, much more!

My poor baby girl was sick on her birthday but she is bouncing back just fine.  Had a great party for her Sunday evening with lots of family and friends. Loved watching her play and mingle with everyone.  She is the sweetest little girl.  Her daddy took lots of pictures and when I have some I will share some with you. 

Happy Birthday Sunshine!  Mommy loves you!

2012 Goals

Not sure I'm being smart about this but I'm going to put my goals in writing.  I think I'm setting myself up to get shot in the foot but oh well, here we go...

In no particular order...only the order that they pop into my head...

Organize my house.
This is a must!  No if, ands or buts...must happen.  Not that my house is in complete and utter chaos but there are still boxes to be unpacked, things to be hung on the walls and just more organization overall.  I'm confident things will get better as the boxes disappear.  Now whether I keep what's in them or chunk them to the curb is another story.  :)
 
Cook. 
Not just cook more but cook.  I have gotten really bad about this, especially over the holidays.  My kids aren't involved in sports but it sure seemed like we were constantly going so we ate out or had a sandwich, ramen noodles or mac n cheese for dinner.  Kids loved it most of the time.  Me, not so much. 

Cook new meals.
Try new things, expand on what we do like.  Don't be afraid of the unknown in the kitchen.  Was flipping through cookbooks looking for a specific recipe the other day and saw so many things I wanted to try.  So yes, going to try new things and pray my kids will at least taste it.

Spend less, save more.
Who doesn't have this one on their list?  I want to meet them if they don't.  I think there are always ways to cut back and spend less somehow, some way.

Coupons!
Was really good about couponing until we moved and I got out of the habit.  Going to try and get back into it.  I'm not what you call an extreme couponer but I do enough that makes me feel like I'm helping out.

Hook my computer up. 
This will help with my ORGANIZE goal for 2012.  I honestly don't know how I have gone on this long without my computer at home, but I do think the lack of it has contributed to me feeling unorganized and scattered.  Never realized just how much I used it until it wasn't hooked up.
 
Family Cookbook.
This family cookbook has been on my agenda since 2002 folks.  Yes, you read that right.  Life has put it on the back burner one too many times so I am bound and determined to get it done, FOR REAL this time!  I'm not even going to push it and say it'll be complete by the end of 2012, I just want to get the dang thing started and be working on it.  Its something I really want to do. 

Be a better mom, daughter, sister, friend, aunt and girlfriend :)
Who doesn't want to be?  Again, this is something I think there is always room for improvement.  Or maybe I'm just that bad of a person. 

Get Bella potty-trained.
OY!  I dread this...only because Christopher took his sweet time.  Bella seems to be doing a whole lot better than he did just not so much with me.  Daycare tells me every day how good she's doing, how she takes a nap and wakes up dry, blah, blah, blah.  For me..its hit and miss equally. 

Work on Bella sleeping in own bedroom. 
Yipes!  I think I dread this more than the above.  She has no desire to sleep in her own bed.  None.  Any tips would be great here.

Walk more.
Nothing really to say.  Just need to walk more.  Feel good when I do it, just need to do it.

Keep believing.
Continue to BELIEVE in 2012.


So there you have it, my goals for 2012.  We'll see how I end up doing.  Do you have goals for this year?

Organize

My word for 2012.  ORGANIZE...everything!

Was going to go with create but changed my mind.  I agree with my friend Jenn who said create and organize are the same thing and go together but I decided I'm going with organize.  I need it badly in my life.  Have been saying for a while how unorganized I feel.  This is the year to get it all under control. 

So please, if you have any tips, send them my way!  I need all the help I can get.